tak sedap hati

Selalu perkara yang terjadi adalah tak seperti yang diinginkan. Apa yang paling dikesalkan adalah harapan daripada diri sendiri...selalu diri sendiri tak menjadi seperti yang diri sendiri inginkan.

Challenges in summer

It's summer. A very challenging season for me because night is short and I have to perform three prayers (sholat), one around 10:00 pm till 11:40pm [maghrib], one between 11:40pm till 03:30 [i'sya'], and final [fajr] between 03:30 till 05:30. The problem is, I normally go to bed around 10 pm. This is my standard sleeping time wherever I am...so after maghrib I sleep and I have to wake up again at least one time, normally between 03:00 to 04:00 am to perform Isya'and Fajr. Alhamdulillah, normally I manage not to skip these prayers although I missed few times in which I was really tired and did not awake at all. Again alhamdulillah...if it is not from the strenght given from Him, I will never be able to do my prayers. (This is why when we heard adzan (calling for prayers) when the bilal said "haiya a'la sholah" which means lets perform prayer, we have to answer it by "lahau lawala quwwata illa billah" which means there is no change or power except through Allah).

This reminds me a lot to always be thankful to Allah whenever I finish performing my sholat, and never ever look down to people who do not perform their prayers. Of course, our effort is to teach and train a muslim (especially those who are close with us) to perform prayers at the very beginning of age, but our hearts belong to Allah. HE can twist our hearts, even if we are very well trained, we could fall into the false direction. Therefore, we must not be proud of ourself but keep asking guidance from Allah and be thankful.

May Allah guide us and protect us...forgive us Our Lord...

Pesanan kepada anak-anak

Salam,
Juga peringatan kepada saya seorang anak;

First, SOLAT 5 waktu sehari semalam.
Seterusnya...

1. Sentiasa doakan ibu dan ayah, "Ya Allah, ampunilah kedua ibu dan ayahku dan kasihanilah kedua ibu bapaku sebagaimana mereka mengasihaniku sejak kecil".
2. Janganlah menyakiti hati ibu dan ayah. Gembirakan mereka.
3. Selalu menziarahi ibu dan ayah.
4. Rajin-rajin tolong ibu dan ayah.

InshaAllah akan disambung bila ada idea untuk improve.

Pesanan kepada si ayah dan si ibu

Salam,
Also a reminder to myself and all beloved parents around the world,

First and foremost....dirikan solat.
Seterusnya....

1. Berikan didikan agama dan duniawi yang terbaik yang kita mampu kepada anak-anak.
2. Berikan nafkah yang halal (makanan yang halal, sumber yang halal).
3. Sekiranya buat pembelian (apa sahaja contohnya minyak kereta, sabun mandi, berus gigi) menggunakan kad kredit, buat pembayaran cepat-cepat supaya tidak dikenakan interest. Ingat, interest itu riba', riba' itu haram.
4. Jagalah aurat dengan sempurna.
5. Tundukkan pandangan, jangan memandang sesuatu yang bukan hak.
6. Bersabar dengan kerenah anak-anak. Bak kata pepatah, merekalah racun, merekalah penawar.
7. Jagalah tutur kata. Mereka belajar daripada kita.
8. Cuba usahakan supaya anak-anak kita berada dalam lingkungan orang-orang yang soleh, yang positif supaya anak-anak kita sentiasa belajar perkara yang baik.
9. Terangkan di dunia ini ada banyak anasir jahat, tapi ajar anak-anak kita berdoa supaya terpelihara daripada sesuatu yang jahat itu.
10. Kenali potensi anak-anak dan dorong mereka supaya berjaya.
11. Bercakap dengan nasihat yang jelas. Instead "jangan malas", sebut "jadi rajin". Instead, "jangan lari", sebut "jalan perlahan".
12. Doakan anak-anak kita...

Banyak lagi, but to me..these are fundamental....Allah knows best.

Busy busy

Dear friends,

Besides reading many and many scientific articles everyday, I also spend some time to read novels (which I can hardly do it when I am in Malaysia). *smile* Why? It is because I'm too busy.

Too busy. Many people said that "too busy" is really a bad excuse. So, let's use different term of too busy, which is, "I'm fully occupied with other responsibilites which are much more important". Now, any objection? *smile* Let me continue the story of my responsibilities.

Back in my country (Malaysia) (oh, now I'm at Wageningen, The Netherlands), I am a wife, a mother of three, a daughter, a staff at University Putra Malaysia, and a part of community which I live. I normally out of home from 9:00 to 18:00 (driving, at office doing my work, breakfast, lunch, etc.). From 18:00 to 9:00 (in the next morning) I am at home, cooking, cleaning, doing laundry, and most important, taking (a good) care of my children and be nice to my husband. *smile*. I do all the house chores alone and sometimes with the help of my husband when he is not too tired.

Poor children since me and my husband are less efficient when we are at home. We are already tired after office hour and with very minimum energy, we have to give attention to our children. It is really challenging for me. You know what I mean, having a 5 year, 3 year and 8 month baby is not easy...remember.

But I'm happy and really thankful. I do not have to describe further why am I happy and thankful. I believe as I am getting older, I develop the skills to manage my life for example to control my feeling, to communicate efficiently and be more cheerful and helpful.

Oh, before I end, just another story of a busy parent. My husband received a call from our eldest son's (Adam) Q-dees school headmistress this morning. She told my husband that tomorrow is their school sports day. Hem, my husband didn't alert of the big day because he has been too busy with his office work. And unfortunately my husband has to go to Kota Kinabalu tomorrow for National Suzuki Dealer Conference. No one from our close relatives are available tomorrow to take Adam to his sports day. Poor little boy. Adam has to miss his sports day which I guess one of the biggest events for him this year. I am a bit sad... However, that is life! I believe Adam will have another probably bigger sports event in coming years. Yes, let's hope so. :)

Bye for now!